I need to just relax

Lately I have noticed that I am putting a lot of pressure on myself to tune into my psychic sense ALL THE TIME. I constantly feel the need to know who it is when the phone is ringing, and every time I close my eyes, I try to interpret whatever I see behind my eye lids, in case there is an important message in there, and when somebody sits next to me on the bus, I find myself trying to determine if they have kids, etc.

Then the other night I took a cab home after being out with some co-workers. Both the cab driver and I were feeling chatty and I told him that I was hoping to become a professional psychic. He said "Oh, you're psychic? Tell me something about myself." I closed my eyes and tried for a second and was about to say "You are single. You miss your family." First I dismissed it as being a mere guess. But then I panicked at the thought that it might not be true. Maybe he was married and his whole family, including his parents, were all here in this country. So I ended up telling him that I couldn't do it right now. I said that I had been drinking and that I was in a moving vehicle and that I just didn't feel up to it.

Maybe he thought I was a fraud. But that's okay. Sometimes I myself think that I am a fraud. My panic in the cab clearly shows my own doubts. In continuing the conversation with the cab driver, I found out that I was indeed right. He *was* single and he *did* miss his family, and he was planning to go back to Palestine within the next couple of years, and he was trying to figure out if he should get married here or there.

I think I should stop being so hard on myself. I don't need to be psychic ALL THE TIME. I only need to when I have a specific question or when someone else does. Just like not everything I see with my eyes or hear with my ears everyday is crucial information, not everything I pick up with the sixth sense is noteworty either. As the title already says, I need to just relax. The important information will be there when I need it.