Dear Summer People,
Today is the full moon. I received something very special in the mail today. Of course - the full moon is for receiving! I received a Psychic Journal. More on that further below. But first..DREAMS AND INSECURITIES
Do you have dreams? Do you have insecurities? I have both. Dreams are what I strive for; insecurities are my road blocks. But that doesn't mean that insecurities are bad. Oh no. They are not bad. I love them, just as much as I love dreams. They are powerful, and I am learning so much from them.
For a while now I have been wondering what my specialty is as a counselor. People sometimes say “Oh, you’re a counselor. What kind?” And I often tell them that I'm a life counselor. Then they ask “Which part of life?” and I say “Everything.” But that's not really true. I have known for a while that I have a special interest in dreams. Not the what-did-you-dream-last-night kind, but the what-is-your-biggest-dream-and-why-aren't-you-living-it kind. And Insecurity is Dream's ugly cousin. But the ugly cousin needs to be heard too. She needs some attention, so that she won't plot against others for being mean to her.
I have been discussing my insecurities very publicly on my blog. Being that open may be daunting for many, but it's the perfect tool for me right now. It's the perfect way for my dream's ugly cousin to be heard. I have found that laying my insecurities out in the sun, actually makes them go away. Suddenly Insecurity is not so ugly anymore. Suddenly we can actually be friends. I am feeling more liberated, relieved, and yes, secure. Dreams & Insecurities, like Yin & Yang, like Light & Dark, like Blue & Yellow, like Male & Female, they balance me out.TAXI BLOG
One of my dreams right now is to write a taxi column for a newspaper or magazine. I'm actively working on making that real but for now, my taxi column has a little place on the web: http://daycabbie.blogspot.com/INTERCHANGE ORIENTATION
As mentioned before, the year-long counseling training I took, which ended in June, is starting up again this fall. Interchange has been invaluable for me in that it has enabled me to feel and express my feelings to the fullest and to hold space for others to do the same. If you're interested in finding out more about the program, Steve is having an orientation
this Monday, August 14.PSYCHIC JOURNAL
One of the most exciting moments of my life was when in February 2004 my name and picture appeared on the Macromedia website next to an article I had written about web services. Recently I had a similarly exciting moment when my name appeared next to the words “Psychic Journal” on lulu.com
My ex-roommate Joe told me about lulu.com
. It's a self-publishing site where anybody can publish books, calendars, CD’s, etc. Joe said “Dude, Vera, I think you need to look into this.” I did, and less than 36 hours later, my Psychic Journal was published. And I had known, before meeting Joe for coffee that day, that he was going to give me something special that was going to propel me forward. And that shall be the first entry in my own Psychic Journal.
I had been wanting to create a Psychic Journal ever since I saw a Knitting Journal at the knitting store. I had searched Amazon.com and there was no journal called Psychic Journal. I knew this had to change. Journaling is one of the most important strengtheners of the psychic sense. The world needed a Psychic Journal. And now it has one. Getting off Muni today, I knew that my Psychic Journal had arrived in the mail. I could tell by the excitement I was feeling as I walked home. And that shall be the second entry in my Psychic Journal.
I had hoped for Chronicle Books to publish my Psychic Journal, and maybe one day they will. But for now, I just had to get this out: http://www.lulu.com/content/378747
It's apparent that I have a very strong drive to publish things, to have my name appear on a website, to have my picture appear in a magazine. For a while I thought that that drive came from my ego. But now I know that that's not true. Having published works touches something much deeper in me than my ego. In the depth of my soul—as in everybody's—there is a desire to make a contribution, to create, to have a voice. That contribution, that creation, that voice, makes me feel alive.
What makes YOU feel alive? What drives YOU?